Monday, April 29, 2019


Reflections on the Fifth Week of Spring – Sunny Spring Weeding 
Strawberry Plant

Wanting a practical activity to celebrate Earth Day, I interrupted my husband’s search for his work gloves. “Would weeding strawberries be appropriate today?”

Before replacing the pillow he’d lifted off the sofa, Spence blurted, Ohgodyes.” He bent and scooped the gloves from under the sofa then left to load the chainsaw into his pickup. He planned to cut firewood from a neighbor’s trees that blew down in a January tornado.

I don’t usually garden when he’s awaytoo many questions go unanswered. But weeding strawberries didn’t trigger many questions. Dig out everything except the strawberry plants, let garter snakes slither away, and avoid ticks. Easy. Easy. Not so easy.

After spending part of April 11 at a health care center so a nurse, with evil looking tweezers, could dig half a tick from the back of my right ear, I’d sprayed generous amounts of tick spray before planting pansies on April 18. That sort of worked. But I hadn’t sprayed my face. After planting, I discovered a tick had crawled up my nose when I sneezed the pest into a handkerchief.


Before heading to the strawberry bed on Earth Day, I sprayed tick repellent over every square inch of my clothes including the garden hat, work gloves, and knee pads. I grabbed a trowel and dandelion digger then marched to the garden. April-green grass, tiny leaves on apple trees, and catkins turning the golden willows gold tempted me to fetch my camera. I resisted and focused my eyes on the ground to avoid stepping on the violets, spring beauties, and corn speedwell growing in the grass.

At the far end of the four by forty-five foot strawberry bed, I knelt, averted my eyes from spring’s delights, and thrust the trowel into the soil. Scrunch. Fragrance of moist soil and earthworms rose from the garden.

And Spence’s pickup rumbled down the road. The sound and fragrance triggered the memory of a day last spring when Spence and I weeded strawberries together. [See “Strawberry Surprise” April 1, 2018] Hooves had hammered the road, a truck engine roared, and a man yelled. Then a high stepping Morgan horse raced past followed by a pickup with Amish man waving his straw hat from the tailgate.

Would I see a high-stepping Morgan this spring?

When Spence’s pickup passed the garden, he honked.

Lifting my arm, I twisted my wrist to rock my hand in a Queen Elizabeth wave.

Dust rose behind the truck’s tailgate.

I pulled a clump of bitter cress and, creating my own dust, shook the soil from its roots. Then I tossed the weed onto the garden path to wither in the sun. Weed by weed, I worked toward the house. A lawn mower brummed, an airplane roared, and a robin sang cheer up, cheerily.

Three water breaks and four hours later, I heard Clip . . . clop . . . clip . . . clop. Not the runaway Morgan. Two women on quarter horses [ https://www.britannica.com/animal/American-Quarter-Horse ] strolled past. One rider exercised her thumbs on a cell phone. The other looked at me and shouted, “Hi!”

I waved, and the fingers in my right hand curled into a you’re-done-for-the-day cramp. I’d left a trail of uprooted thistles, dandelions, and bitter cress in the garden path plus a hundred square feet of weed-free soil with greening strawberry plants. The other eighty-square feet would have to wait.
Strawberry Bed -- Old Section

I carried the trowel and digger to the porch then scanned my clothes. No ticks. Stepping inside, I pulled off my sweatshirt, hung it on a kitchen chair, and washed my hands at the sink.


Tuesday morning, Spence, who’d sprayed tick repellent before he logged and showered after his logging, found a tick on his upper left thigh. Had the tick survived the shower? Had a tick hidden in my sweatshirt and crawled to Spence during the night?


After an hour of smothering the tick with a glob of Vaseline, Spence lifted his leg to the bathroom sink, wobbled, and clutched the corner of the shower for support.

Six inches from his cute green boxers, I found the tick half in, half our of a red spot. With normal tweezers, I squeezed the tick and tug-tug-tugged to pull it out.

Did I want to chance getting my fifth tick in two years while weeding the rest of the strawberry patch? Pouring rain Tuesday let me postpone that decision.

On sunny Wednesday, Spence drove off to Cleveland for his campaign against lead poisoning. I peered out the sliding glass door. Dew glistened in the greening garden. Spring’s enticements lured me outside again.

On the porch, I saturated every square millimeter of my clothing with tick spray. When I set the spray bottle on the porch desk and turned to walk to the strawberry patch, I slipped in a puddle of tick repellent on the cement floor. I grabbed the desk with one hand and Spence’s workbench with the othersaving my bottom from hitting the hard wet cement. And, no tick would dare crawl on me.

Slow stepping in slippery shoes, I carried my weeding tools to the garden and dug. When a weed entangled itself with a strawberry, I dug the pair together, shook the soil off, and disentangled their roots. I tossed the weed onto the garden path and transplanted the strawberry in a weed-free spot. Weed by weed I moved toward the house.

Determined to finish the strawberry patch so I didn’t need to endanger myself from slipping in spray puddles Thursday, I kept my eyes on the garden. That didn’t prevent me from listening.

Deer Creek babbled, a morning dove cooed, and a cardinal sang birdie, birdie, birdie. Wind chimes clanged, spring peepers peeped, and bullfrogs croaked. Weeding or moving my hands while listening to a concert? Whichever, four hours and two water breaks later, I dug the last weed, at least for that moment, then carried the trowel and digger to the porch.

I took off my outer clothing one piece at a timehat, first glove, second glove, first knee pad, second knee pad, sweatshirtand shook each one vigorously before studying it for a tiny black speck with legs. With my fingers, I combed through my hair and felt the back of my neck. Finally, I brushed my shoes, jeans, and turtleneck with the palms of my hands. No ticks.

But I didn’t take a change on a tick hiding like the one that dug into Spence.

Thursday morning, within the twenty-four hours before a tick could give me Lyme disease, I submerged myself in the YMCA pool. Even if a tick could survive a shower, no tick could survive a three-quarter mile swim.

And maybe the next time I venture into the garden, ticks will develop bite fatigue and sleep under the ground cover. Unlikely, but I can saturate myself with tick spray and hope.
New Apple Leaves, Crepuscular Rays, and Strawberry Bed

Sunday, April 21, 2019


Reflections on the Fourth Week of Spring – Part of Life

Emma Woodhouse Wells January 16, 2003 - April 16, 2019

 Emma, in her pouty-princess mood, lay limp on the exam table at the veterinary clinic Tuesday, April 9. Annoyed at the indignity of her caged transport? Frustrated that her hobble-wobble-flops returned? [See “Hobble, Wobble, Flop” March 3, 2019] Sapped from losing four pounds in two weeks?


She would grab a cat crunchie in her teeth, but couldn’t move it back to chew or swallow.” I looked into Dr. Wolf’s face hoping for the grin from pierced to unpierced ear. “The food just fell out of her mouth.

That and the loss of mobility go with her neurological condition.” Dr. Wolf returned my look with her serious poker face. “When cats have neurological set backs, it’s not a good sign. I can't promise the medicine will give her five more years.” The vet stroked Emma’s back.You need to be prepared."

Back home, Emma didn’t prepare. She adapted. Hobbling past the bowl of crunchies, she squatted in front of the water bowl. Lap, lap, lap.

My husband stuck an iced-tea spoon of chicken with gravy cat food under her nose.

She licked.

Chicken chunks flew.

Spence scooped the chunks back onto the spoon.

Emma licked.

Chunks flew.

Spence scooped chunks until Emma turned her head.

The next day, I loaded the spoon with baby food.

Emma licked the mashed chicken and swallowed. After a couple feedings, though, she met the spoon with fastened lips and half closed eyes. She hobbled away and squatted in front of the water bowl. Lap, lap, lap.

She processed her water diet efficiently.

After forcing herself off the blanket by the wood stove fire, she scrambled her feet in a half yard dash then plopped onto her butt. Staring at the floor as if waiting for her strength to return, she sat. Five minutes later, she made another scrambling dash on her journey to the litter box in the bathroom.

When her legs refused to make that journey, she did what any senior citizen in Mercer County would do. She calledmerrowfor transport.

I picked her up, carried her to the litter box, and set her inside.

Her wobbly legs didn’t give much support. Making another adjustment, she rested her butt on the edge of the litter box. A stream of odorless, colorless pee trickled across the bathroom tile.

When her legs gave no support, she sank into the litter and lay on her stomach. Once the watery flow ended, she crossed her front feet and closed her eyes for a nap.

Four days after the vet exam, Emma made a wobbly trip to the water bowl. Lap, lap, lap. Pivoting on her butt, she turned to an empty paper grocery bag that I’d left to dry on the floor because a dish detergent bottle had leaked on the way home from the store. Emma stuck her nose into the bag.

Would she step in and explore? Maybe the increased prednisone had helped.
Emma After Plants
Emma hobbled-wobbled, hobble-wobbled, and flopped front half in, back half out of the bag. She lay still. “Spence, look!” I grabbed my cell phone to take her photo. “She’s playing! She’s in the bag.”


Spence, tending seedlings in the basement, climbed the stairs and leaned over the railing.

Emma backed out of the bag.

I set the phone down and scooped her into my arms. “Good girl. You played in a bag.”

Fur on her tail moistened my sleeve. I stared at the floor. A puddle spread six inches from the paper bag. Peeingnot playing. “Oh, Emma. I would’ve carried you to the litter box.” After setting her on the blanket by the wood stove fire, I fetched a rag and disinfectant.

Spence belly laughed. “She made a substitute litter box.”

On my knees, I failed to see the humor. After cleaning the odorless puddle, though, I snickered.She’s the princess of adaptation.”

Monday she adapted by laying on her side. She moved her legs as if hobble-wobbling through the air, and she opened her mouth for soundless merrows.

I wet her lips with a syringe. “You’re precious.”

Spence shifted her blanket to tend the fire. “You’re loved.

I eased Emma onto her other side and combed her hair. “You’re special.”

Emma kept her back to the warmth of the fire or to one of us. When Spence laid her beside him on the sofa, she wiggled until her back rested against his thigh. And when I carried her to bed that night, she whimpered until I pulled her back against my tummy. During the night, she woke and whimpered. I petted her. “I’m here, pretty princess.

By Tuesday morning, after a week of watching Emma fade, we had prepared.

Spence gathered his gear for a day volunteering in Cleveland then knelt beside Emma. He scratched under her chin. “Do what you have to do.”

I packed for lap swim in Meadville then gathered Emma into my arms. “You’ve waged a valiant struggle. If you want to go find George, [See “Holding Him CloseDecember 23, 2018] I understand.”

Mid day I returned from swimming.

Emma didn’t raise her head off the blanket in front of the wood stove, but her sideonce soccer-ball plump, now concaverose and fell in a peaceful rhythm. The peaceful breathing reminded me of my friend Sister Loretta’s rising and falling chest.

Six and a half years earlier, I’d sat with Sister’s nephews and several nuns beside her convent bed. We chatted and included her in the conversation. She didn’t answer. We watched. Her breathing slowed until it stopped.

I crouched by Emma, petted her head, then sat in my log chair beside her. “Pretty girl . . . Special princess . . . Much loved kitty.” During the vigil, I checked email.

A writer in my Meadville group sent a message I’d watched for since the end of March. “Our little girl is two weeks old today!” My eyes devoured details7 lbs. 8 oz. and 20 ½ inches long.

Squealing in delight at the photo of the baby girl’s cherubic face, I looked over the screen at my little girl cat.

Emma’s side didn’t move.

Beginnings and endings.

Birth and death.

Both are part of life.
Emma March 2003