Sunday, August 23, 2020

 Reflections - Piano Sisters

Byeol Kim's Hands and Reflection - photo by Anita

Thursday evening, July 30, I stood at the kitchen sink but didn’t gaze through the window at frolicking rabbits and robins—my dish-washing entertainment. Instead, I peered over my shoulder at the laptop on the kitchen table. The screen displayed Josquin Otal’s fingers confidently pressing piano keys. The speakers released majestic Brahms. Minor chords sent shivers of awe down my spine. And my heart warmed at the thought circling through my head.


My sister Anita, in her home on a New Jersey mountain top, was watching the online performance at the same time. I’d emailed her about Virtu(al)oso, Piano Cleveland’s Global Piano Competition for Artist Relief. While dunking my hands in sudsy water, I anticipated nine nights of sharing expert piano playing with my sister—six with five contestants each for the first round, two with three candidates each for the final round, and the closing award ceremony. Apart yet together.


At the end of Otal’s performance, my cell phone chimed to alert me that an email had arrived from Anita. Watching Virtu(al)oso, then, would be more than mentally sharing with my sister. We could chat throughout the performances without hearing a single scolding “shhhhhhh.” Wiping my hands, I clicked on her message.


A: I love to watch their faces. You can tell if someone is into the music or just playing notes. The first pianist is in a world of music and truly felt the chords. This one sways a lot, but her facial expression barely changes. [Tian Tang from China]


J: I don’t like her dress. Though she had such a high, delicate speaking voice, her piano voice comes across strong. 


A: Her dress was not a good color on her. Her fingers on the keys were not as good as I expected. Flat fingered a lot. This guy [Elia Cecino from Italy] has a nice selection and plays well, but again, those flat fingers. Miss McCarthy would have my fingers black and blue from hitting them with a ruler.


Miss McCarthy had been our piano teacher in Titusville. As a first or second grader, I walked from Elm Street School to her house for lessons during my lunch break. My memory of piano lessons was munching a peanut butter and jelly sandwich while sitting on a cushioned bench and listening to the slow plink of notes made by the student before me. Anita must be right that Miss McCarthy was strict. One day, instead of walking to her house, I carried my lunch home. 


Mom waited for me at the door. “Why didn’t you go to your piano lesson?” 


Uh-oh. Miss McCarthy must have called. I lied. “I don’t feel well.” 


Mom sent me to bed. 


Forcing myself to be as quiet as the whole rest Miss McCarthy taught me about, I heard Mom say, “She must be sick. She didn’t complain when I put her to bed.”


If Anita had been the student before me, the music accompanying my lunches would have been better, and I couldn’t have skipped the lesson. Older than me by two years, she would have marched me to Miss McCarthy’s.


I would have listened to her then, and as I read her emails about the piano competition decades later, I enjoyed the sound of her voice in my head.


We chatted. 


A: This one is a little drama queen so far. [Fuko Ishii from Japan]


J: He's kind of dancing with the piano. His phenomenal fortissimo section gave me chills. [Han Chen from Taiwan]


A: This guy’s going to get his nose stuck in the keys. [Lovre Marusic from Croatia]


We cheered.


A: Bravo!


J: Well done!


A: WOW, double BRAVO. 


We chose finalists.


A: Another night of good competition and some great artists.


J: I’m fogged tonight. Can’t remember which ones I liked. Probably all of them except the drama queen. So 1 [Han Chen],  3 [Madoka Fukami from Japan], and 5 [Zhu Wang from China]. Do you think 4 [Martin Garcia Garcia from Spain] should be on the list?


A: No, I was not impressed with him. This one [Zhu Wang] is much better technically. His only fault is he needs to iron his shirts.


Choosing just six finalists from the thirty contestants challenged us. Because the pianists had survived the first cut from one hundred fifty-eight applicants living in thirty-three different countries, all played technically amazing performances. On top of that, the first round stretched over six nights. As their fingers blurred through presto passages, their performances blurred in our minds. To compensate, we relied on the email comments to refresh our memories, and I deferred to Anita’s judgment on modern selections which made me want to plug my ears.

Madoka Fukami - photo by Anita

Real life obstacles ratcheted up these challenges.


Doggy duties pulled Anita away sometimes.


After she retired from her job in school district administration, Anita became a foster mom for Tibetan Terriers. She fostered Tibetans with health issues, fell in love with them, and adopted many. She cared for up to seven dogs at a time. She’s down to four now. She also arranged emergency care for Tibetans in trouble all over the nation.


A: (Friday) I missed a little in the middle because the boys needed a potty break, and I didn’t want to clean it up.


A: (Her first email of Saturday night arrived fifty minutes into the performance) Having issues with a rescue tonight so being interrupted and not seeing much of the performance.


A: (Her second email arrived a half hour later) I hope that is the last call tonight. I have been listening off and on but haven’t been able to watch.


With dogs under control, emails became the issue. Our Piano Competition string had added one email after another from the first performance through the fourth night. As Martin Garcia Garcia played a composition he’d written about the pandemic (Abstract XI in E Major, Op. 1), I typed our ninety-ninth message—Gmail’s count not mine. Minutes later, Gmail posted we’d written six messages. 


Yikes! Where had the others gone? Did Gmail trash the string when we hit a hundred? I clicked menu items. 


Not in the trash. 


Not in the inbox. 


Fretting I’d never remember our choices, my phone chimed with an answer. Anita’s next email came with a microscopic trail of old messages under it. Only the computer trail had disappeared. Without answering Anita, I squeezed my eyelids until my face muscles ached and read the teensy blue print to scribble a list of our choices. (Note: In fairness to Gmail, I would find the computer emails tucked in an “Anita Keepers” file several days later.)


And on the fifth night, worse trouble loomed.


A: Unfortunately, we are in line for the hurricane tonight and tomorrow. There is a weird smell with the wind. Sweet but not pleasant. This [Isaias] is the worst storm since Superstorm Sandy to hit the area. The power company has called me for 2 days to bottle water. The county has called the last 3 days telling us the shelters will not be opened because of COVID and to preplan.


J: Yikes. I hope the forecasters are wrong. Hang in there.


A: We will be safe, but maybe a little blown and wet.


The forecasters weren’t wrong. 


Isaias pelted New Jersey with rain and knocked out Anita’s power before noon Tuesday, the final day of the first round. The county management called her to say her power would be off for days and she should go to a hotel.


She didn’t. She stayed home with her Tibetans. No internet. No landline. But she had her cell phone.


A: Cannot see. No power.


A: I might be able to watch a little from my cell phone.  


A: Saw first part of Bach. Will listen in and report at intermission.


Visualizing Anita peering at pianists on her tiny phone screen, I doubted she could see their hand posture or facial expressions. I would have to be her eyes. I neglected the dishes, scribbled notes, and sent a long email about the first two contestants during intermission.


J: First player [Abuzar Manafzak from Azerbaijan]

Bach/Liszt prelude: Rounded hands. Bounced on the piano bench. Accurate, flat dynamics.

Bach/Liszt fugue: Not much variation in tones. Looked like he strained the notes through his face.

Rachmaninoff: Rounded hands. Face showed effort, not passion. Soft touch to slamming bangs.

Prokofiev: Rounded hands. More life. Short, dynamic, and lovely. His best.

 

Second player [Michael Lu from the United States]

Wearing a mask.

Schubert: Rounded hands. Had energy, excitement, and dynamics.

Price (Cotton Dance): Lively. Sparkled. He seemed to smile through the mask. Crossed hands over several times. Fun.

Schumann:. Fingers blurred. Excited. Sat still, no swaying. Passionate. Ended strong.

 

With three more artists to go, I watched, washed, and wrote notes. Hanging up the dish towel near the end of the fifth player’s performance, I tapped computer keys to record the soggy notes while Martin James Bartlett concluded his performance with Rachmaninoff. Doubting the pianist at first because he grimaced and made funny faces like Alfred E. Newman, I expected Martin to burst out laughing at any moment. But, he was masterful. He bounced on the bench playing chords, swayed with melodies, and earned my ratings of awesome, awesome, and awesome again. He would definitely be a finalist. While I debated the three pianists in the middle, Anita emailed.


A: Like your comments. 


A: Got to see some on phone


A: My picks are Anna [Anna Han from the United States] and Martin [Martin James Bartlett] from England. Going to bed. Finding my way in the dark. Will see your comments in a.m.

Encore Performance by Byeol Kim - photo by Janet

Sheesh. Of course Anita was right. She had made quick, decisive choices using only her tiny phone screen.


Anita didn’t have power the following day when the judges announced their six finalists, but, because she had a battery pack to keep her cell phone charged, she found the post as soon as I did. The judges chose three from our list.

Martin James Bartlett, a masterful pianist who brought every song to life and entertained with unique facial expressions.

Byeol Kim, a gifted pianist who played with emotion and pedaled in neon green spiked heels.

Madoka Fukami, a talented pianist who played Bach distinguishing all the fugue voices and kept a solemn face above her kimono and white socks. 


Friday, the first day of the finals, Anita sent good news after lunch.


A: We just got power. Hope it stays on.


It did. 


We chatted.


We cheered. 


We chose the same three pianists we’d selected from the first round.


A: Bartlett and Kim, then Fukami and then all the others. 


J: Those are my top three too. But this guy [The leaner—Lovre Marusic from Croatia] might place.


A: Technically, I agree, However on crowd appeal, not so much. Tomorrow at 7 we will see how right/wrong we have been in our choices.


Monday came after what seemed like ten nights. I booted up the computer, tied on my apron, and washed dishes while glancing over my shoulder.  


On the computer screen, hosts repeated thank you, thank you, thank you. 


My stomach tightened. I told myself it didn’t matter who won because all the pianists were excellent. And I’d had an eleven day virtual vacation with my sister chatting via emails. We’d already won. Nevertheless, I bit my lip and waited.


Beyol Kim took third place and played an encore from her home.


We hadn’t chosen the second place winner, Arseny Gusev from Russia. While he played his encore, I silently chanted Martin has to be first.


A host cleared his throat and announced, “The first prize winner is . . . “


Sheesh. Do people always have to pause before the name?


“ . . . Martin James Bartlett from the United Kingdom.”


I hooted. 


All three cats scratched the wood floor with their claws and dove under the sofa.


A: YES YES YES


J: Ditto! We picked him!!! We’ll have to watch for his name in the news.


A: Wonder how he felt when he found out he won. That little smile?????


Now, when I stand at the sink, submerge my hands in soapy water, and gaze through the window at rabbits nibbling clover, I remember the camaraderie of listening to piano performances with Anita. And I crack a little smile.

Martin James Bartlett - screenshot by Janet


Sunday, August 9, 2020

 Reflections -  Almost Missed You

Almost Missed You

Because I’d read Jessica Strawser’s editor’s letters in Writer’s Digest for years, I recognized
her photograph in the 2019 Pennwriter’s Conference advertisements. Her speech to the whole
group and her workshop convinced me to buy her first novel, Almost Missed You.

Good decision.


Wow!


Jessica creates believable characters and puts them through an increasingly tense character

driven plot.


Internal dialogue brings the three, point of view characters to life—flaws and all. Violet, 

Caitlin, and Finn each withhold information which damages relationships when discovered.


Jessica's ability to increase the tension and raise the stakes by continually putting her characters 

between a worse rock and hard place had me clutching the sides of the book. I doubted I could

finish after the second ratchet-up, but stakes were too high. I felt compelled to read on. 

Professors should use Jessica’s novel to teach tension building.


I made it to the end for Jessica’s logical, not dreadful, resolution.

 

Sunday, July 26, 2020

Reflections - Becoming Part of Nature

View from the Grassy Knoll

Metaphorically crossing my fingers and toes, I set the phone timer for thirty minutes. Inserting the phone into the folding chair’s cup holder, I leaned back and willed myself to do nothing.

Gene Ware, author and Presque Isle enthusiast, inspired the idea for this adventure. His face had glowed like a sunrise over Lake Erie when he’d explained his December 2016 GoErie blog. “I sat on a bench in the woods at Presque Isle and did nothing.” 

Doing nothing didn’t thrill me. After a walk around Wells Wood with my daughter in the 1990s, she and I had sat on a bench in front of the old cabin. My legs kicked. I started a conversation.

“You don’t know how to relax,” her surprised voice said.

I can relax—reading a book, stretching for yoga poses, putting pieces into a jigsaw puzzle. But Gene’s idea of doing nothing?

His eyes had sparkled. “I became part of nature. A chipmunk walked across my shoe as if I wasn’t there.”

Gene’s enthusiasm and the idea of a cute critter crossing my shoe because I’d become part of nature enticed me for years. Blending into nature for large creatures did not. When I venture into the woods alone, I hang a jumbo jingle bell on my belt to avoid surprising an ambling black bear. Yet, if I failed to do nothing because of imagined dangers, I would be a wuss. I didn’t want that. I’d do nothing. This summer.

While my husband and I walked under the tree canopy along our dirt road the morning of July 13, I obliquely tested the imagined dangers on him.

“I need your help selecting a spot for a Joy of Nothingness adventure.” I glanced at Spence. He stared at a female Diana Fritillary flitting over Queen Anne’s Lace. “I want to sit in the woods and do nothing. Is there a log across Deer Creek I could sit on, or should I take a chair to the grassy knoll?”

Waiting for his admonitions, that’s dangerous or don’t forget your bear bell, I bit my lip.

He said neither.

“Do nothing?” He guffawed then coughed to curb his merriment. “The grassy knoll would be perfect.”

Okay. He wasn’t worried about bears. I wouldn’t either.

That afternoon, under a forget-me-not blue sky dotted with puffy white clouds, I lugged gear for doing nothing. Though I only needed the canvas chair,  I packed a tote bag with my cell phone to time the vigil, a spiral notebook and pen in case I got inspired, and my camera. If a great blue heron or a pair of mallard ducks flew upstream above Deer Creek, I could postpone the nothingness adventure for another day and take their pictures. I left the bear bell at home.

Grass grew calf high on the grassy knoll. I settled the chair behind a row of Christmas Ferns and sat. The chair tilted slanting me toward the drop off to Deer Creek. I pushed the chair further back, sat, and tipped. Gene didn’t have this hassle with his park bench. Repositioning the chair onto ground with the least slant, I pulled the phone out of the bag, set the tote on the ground, and sat. Time to do nothing.

The screen on my phone darkened.

Moments passed like millennia.

If this got excruciating, I could always quit after fifteen minutes.

Checking the phone is doing something.

Maybe I could breathe in rhythm with the gusting breeze.

Breathing is doing something.

I’ll listen for rustling bushes to warn me that a bear is on the way.

Worrying is doing something. Just relax!

My body melted into the chair. I rubbed the pad of my thumb against the other thumbnail.

Sky
Maple leaves swished overhead. Deer Creek babbled over rocks. A wood thrush sang its flute-like melody with trills.

My calves got a twitchy-creeping urge to move.

If I wanted a chipmunk to scramble over my shoes, I dare not move them. Inside my shoes, I rocked my feet—toes to heel. 

Sunlight flickered through the treetops creating a kaleidoscope of shifting greens in the leaves. Branches bobbed and twirled in an arboreal ballet.

The more I relaxed in the chair, the more my legs wanted to party. I gritted my teeth.

A Monarch flitted along the creek bank, and a Cabbage White Butterfly flapped helter-skelter between maple trunks.

I had to move. Restless legs, the reason doing nothing doesn’t agree with me, made me march in place.

A bullfrog by the creek didn’t see my moving feet and bellowed its raspy-twang.

By the time the Cabbage White made its second dizzying trip past the grassy knoll, my legs calmed to urges to move rather than demands. And nature’s theater electrified my senses—the breeze bounced my hair, the light dimmed under drifting clouds, and cheeps harmonized with distant twitters.

BEEP-BEEP-BEEP. The cell phone shattered nature’s calm.

So soon?

I made it?

Jumping out of the chair, I pulled the camera out of the tote bag. As I stretched my legs, I photographed the views from the grassy knoll. I didn’t pull out the notebook. Nothing could wait.

Gathering the gear, I giant-stepped to the log house and imagined the pleasure of shucking fresh peas.

Spence met me on the porch. “How’d it go?”

Should I admit my internal noisiness and fascination with nature’s drama? “Nothing happened.”

He chuckled. “That’s what I thought.”

My nothing adventure will hardly inspire anyone like Gene Ware’s enthusiasm inspired me. Without getting restless legs, I can relax with yoga poses and absorb nature on quiet woods walks. However, I did find a use for Gene’s Joy of Nothingness.

This past Wednesday, like most mornings, Spence stopped tapping keys on his computer and said, “Okay. Ready when you are.” (Translation—time for a walk.)

I gave him my standard answer. “I need to change.”

In the bedroom slipping out of my yoga sweats and into my RYNOSKIN, bug protecting shirt, I could hear Spence walking around the great room greeting the cats. “Nice tummy, Mr. Ande . . . Looking good, Mr. Gilbert . . . Mr. Rills, my buddy!”

While tying my shoelaces, the banter changed to computer keys tapping.

Walking to the great room, I called, “Ready.”

“I’ll only be a moment.”

Waiting on the deck, I did nothing. No worries about large critters or extended restless-leg-challenging passage of time. I stood as still as the pots holding the petunias and pansies.

Inside, Spence clumped into boots and scraped his dresser drawer open to get a T-shirt.

A chipmunk scampered up the deck ramp.

I did nothing.

It flicked its tail and stared at me.

I’d become part of nature.

Spence tramped onto the deck. “Ready.”

The critter dashed away.

One of these times I wait for Spence on the deck, I’ll do nothing, and a chipmunk might scamper across my shoes.
Christmas Ferns


Sunday, July 12, 2020

Reflections -Coffee Pot Poetry 2

Coffee Pot Poetry

This is the second round of Coffee Pot Poetry, in which father and son 
leave each other messages on hand-held dry erase boards beside the coffee 
pot. Cats were always on their pen tips.

Go, Cat, Go

Spence

Go cat go

but don’t you . . .


Charlie

Row, row, row your cat

Gently down the creek

Warily, warily, warily


No Coffee for a Cat

Spence

No coffee for a cat.

I reject the idea flat.

Let ‘em drink tea, especially herbal 

& a spoonful full of sugar


Charlie

Java cats are jamming in their jammies to the sound

Coffee beans a spinning in the grinder spinning round

Jostles replace jiving

As the spinning starts to slow

Java cats are knowing that their coffee’s good to go!



No Coffee for Me


Spence

No coffee for me

Just fountain water’s satisfactory.

Rills is the one who wants Tea.

Make it herbal 

Plus he gets verbal.


Charlie

If cats could read the menu

Would it change their basic wants?

While staring at the pictures

Would they get lost in the fonts?

And dream of leaving Wells Wood

Giving up their favorite Haunts

Would they then dream of Meadville

And their favorite restaurants?